Hey

My name is Holly-as you may already know-or not. School is coming-im freaking out. i have a new boyfriend, we have been going out for about a month and a half and i do truly like him its just that it feels wrong. when i was going out with Tyler, i missed him every second i was away. when we talked, nothing else mattered. i could look at his picture and cry because i was so happy he was mine. i loved him, actually LOVED him. he left me for another women, but i still miss him. i think the problem is that even though i like jake alot and like talking to him and i do miss him when hes not there, its not the same. i think i still love Tyler. after all that happened, its still him i think about in the middle of the night. im not over him. and not im torn. i mean, i have to get over ty. and i feel bad because i dont want to out with jake if im also thinking about someone else. i feel like im cheating on jake. but then again, i dont want to loose him because hes my best friend and boy friend and i dont want to let him go. i dont want to dump him because i still like him-its just that i also like tyler. i dont know what to do-i need help-and now im worried because ive been told that there are many guys who would be perfect for me that i havent met yet. and my friends who say they know guys who are coming to our high school-i get excited. like, what i fall for a third guy? and then forth? its happened to me before. i had 5 guys i couldnt chose from, and in the end i lost all of them. i dont know what to do. You know you love me. XOXO Holly